Ordinary Family

We are an ordinary family. We wake early each morning ready to take on the day that is ahead of us. We all head out to work, school and daycare with hugs, kisses and word of “I love you”, “have a great day” and “see you this afternoon”.

Our weeks are full of Sunday morning church, teaching Sunday school, working the sound boards, work, school, homework, fellowship, ministries, band practice and home cooked meals together. We try to balance work, play and responsibilities. We want to make an impact in this world, in our community, in each other.

We are an ordinary family.

We try to limit mindless self-indulgences but leave time to just be. We love to spend hours outside playing when it’s nice out and to have times of creating together. Our house is open to all, we love cooking for friends and sharing our space. Intimate moments shared and shoulders cried on while the children play innocently all around. We love sharing the space we have been blessed with.

We have our struggles and we have our moments of frustration and fleshing out. We are only human, but we forgive, repent and move onward and upward. We lift each other up.

We are not the extraordinary, we are ordinary and we strive to love others as we are loved by our Lord and Savior.

We allow ourselves to be interruptible. We look to pause and truly listen to those who come to us in confidence. We offer all we have and think of nothing as really ours. We are stewards and long to honor our King with all He has entrusted us with.

We are loved and we are blessed. We have so much more room for growth but acknowledge how far we have come. No guilt.

We are ordinary and look to not be ashamed of where we are or the struggles we experience. We share our lives with those around, we push through and try to remain transparent. We all have burdens to bear and should be able to share with each other and help each other carry these burdens. We are not meant to be bear them alone.

I hope that I am approachable and kind enough that all feel comfortable approaching me with their worries and their burdens. I hope that when others look in on our lives they see that we are far from perfect and do not pass judgment. We understand and want to stand by your side in all your happiest moments and to walk by your side in all your darkest moments too.

We are an ordinary family that expect extraordinary things from Jesus for He has done such amazing things within these lives. I know He can do amazing things in your life too, you just need to give Him the space to do them!

Jesus loves you and so do I.

James 1:2-9 Trials and Temptations

God is good. Today I woke up to this blog post from a friend and this verse on my Bible app. A great reminder!!

James 1:13-14 AMP

Let no one say when he is tempted, I am tempted from God; for God is incapable of being tempted by [what is] evil and He Himself tempts no one. But every person is tempted when he is drawn away, enticed and baited by his own evil desire (lust, passions).

Digging deeper

I have chosen to follow Jesus into a place of great discomfort in order to find healing. I am willing to follow Him, despite the uncomfortably that will come, knowing that He always intends to bring life and light into my life. I have been walking with Jesus long enough to know that I can trust Him completely.

He has brought me to a deep, dark and hardened place within. A cold place I have been trying to keep buried for a very long time. I know he desires to break through this place and that I will be thankful when I’ve come out in the other side. It still scares me.

This journey I am about to embark upon will be difficult and I will need support. I have been blessed with a sister in Christ who is ready and willing to walk by my side through it.

God has done such amazing things in this life I lead and has done such works in me. I faithfully expect that this too will be amazing and that He will use it for His Glory.

I am at the threshold of this long journey and can already see just how big this unresolved pain has been affecting my daily life. I have a glimmer of how this has been causing such struggles for me. I cannot imagine how much more I will discover or how liberating it will be to finally get on the other side.

Never before have I dealt properly with these deep, dark secrets. Anger, uncertainty and pain has been the consequences of holding onto these things. The time has come for Jesus’ Holy light to shine into these parts of me so that I may find freedom.

I choose to follow Jesus,  even when I know it will cause old wounds to reopen and a great discomfort for a period of time. I trust in Him in all things. I pray daily for transformation and healing, now it’s time for me to walk through this place to find it.

I will keep my focus on eternity and obediently follow my Lord into greener pastures. I know He forgives me and it’s time for me to forgive myself.