Our Lord is amazing. He really is.
Jesus is kind, sweet, gentle and loving.
As I have been walking this road of recognizing and releasing my anxiety and guilt, He has been right there. He has been showing me where it stems from, speaking Truth into those places and bringing freedom.
I still have these moments of anxiety gripping my heart, but it is not for long and I am able to work through it. I can feel Jesus softening my heart and showing me how I just need to trust Him more. Not the kind of trust where I say that I trust Him while I am still freaking out about the outcome of any given situation. I give it up in prayer and then I take it right back to over analyze and obsess over. That is not true faith. I need to let it go over and over again. I have to stop taking it back and looking for my own solutions. I need to take these thoughts captive and continuously give it back to Jesus.
5 We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. – 2 Corinthians 10:5
When I live in obedience to God’s Word, I live in a place of peace. I gain such freedom. The stressors don’t go away, life is still a struggle. The difference is that I am no longer looking to the wrong places for answers, I am no longer relying on myself. I look to the only One that really matters. To Christ.
Jesus loves me. He loves all of us. He wants us to rely on Him in all things. We need to give up control and allow our Creator and Savior to lead.
The more I give up control, the more peace I feel at my core. The more I follow where He leads, the more I get to experience Him working miracles. Every time I take a step in the direction He prompts me to, I am blown away by the results. Obedience allows me to be a better instrument in God’s Kingdom.
I am the type of person that likes details and I like for things to follow a series of events that makes sense to me. I like to see where I am going. I like guarantees. I look at the long-term potential of all things before I act. This is how I have lived for so long. It felt safe to me. In reality, it was hindering me.
I am still a planner and I still think about the long term. The difference is that I know that the future is not guaranteed and I know that things change when I least expect it. I know that when Jesus prompts me to make a move in my life, I do it. No matter how uncomfortable it is, not matter how I may doubt myself, I trust in Him. I know for sure that wherever He leads, whatever He tells me to do, is going to be beautiful.
When I allow anxiety and fear to hold me back, I miss out on God’s plans. When I falter and hesitate, others may be missing out too. See God uses us all to move. He wants us to show His love and mercy to those we come into contact with. So when I decide to ignore His prompting, I am quenching His Spirit. This is why I must not allow my fears and anxieties to get in the way. God will move, with or without me. I don’t know about you, but I want to be in his will and moving where He moves. I don’t want to “play it safe” and stay in my comfort zone. I desire to be more, to do more and to bring Christ all the glory.
I am so grateful that we have this option. I am so thankful that Jesus is so patient with me and guides me to a place of better understanding. I am honored to be His servant and choose to move when He tells me to, no matter how uncomfortable I may be.
I choose His will over mine. I choose to work where He tells me to and to apply the gifts He has bestowed upon me in a way that allows others to see Him.
Lord, I pray that You use me each day. I want to make an impact on those that I come into contact with each day. I want to bring You all the glory and I am willing to walk wherever You lead. I ask that You give me the strength to push past the anxiety and fears that creep in and replace them with the knowledge that You are always in control. Nothing is out of your reach and nothing goes unnoticed by You. Help me to stay on the path You lay before me. In The precious name of Jesus I pray these things. Amen.