Giving is Difficult

Giving is essential, giving is rewarding, giving is downright difficult to do. I think people tend to believe that it should be easy to give of self, otherwise they are doing it wrong. This is not true. If you are giving and you find it to be easy, then I don’t believe you may not be giving enough or perhaps not of the right thing. I know that was true for me.

When I finally found a church that I could call home, I struggled with Tithing on a regular basis. You can read more about that in my post, I’m Sorry, How Much?? My husband and I knew that we wanted to give and we did, just sporadically and not the 10% that God asks for. I feel like this is a topic most Christians avoid due to guilt, shame and not wanting to really think about it. I still think I avoid it at times as I don’t want others to feel like the shame I once did.

There is no reason to feel that shame and guilt. Jesus died so that we could be free, so first look to Him in this and allow Him to show you where you need to go in your own personal walk. Trying to be perfect can bring about unnecessary anxiety and lengthen the struggle.

Today I would say to you that you should take some time to see where you are spiritually, emotionally and financially. Start with the 10% goal and see what that looks like for you. Get used to the number and ask Jesus to help you see just what a small percentage that really is. For my family, we took a look at all the money we were wasting on Starbucks, pizza and junk food. If we could find the money for that, why couldn’t we honor God’s command? We were in a place on understanding and conviction when we started giving. This is a much different place than the one of guilt, shame and defiance.

Jesus is all together Holy and all together Good.  He will not fail us and He does not lie. He tells us to trust Him and to take that scary leap of faith, knowing that He is right there, ready to move mountains for us. All we need to do is walk in that faith. Again, this is not easy to do, but so rewarding when we finally do it.

So, we have been tithing appropriately for some time now and it has been amazing. I don’t even give it a second thought now. The 10% that once seemed unattainable is now a weekly constant that we will not touch. That is God’s money and we will not change that. I will move other bills around when we hit those unexpected difficulties, but we will NOT move God’s portion. Without Him we have nothing and we want to honor Him in all we do. It has been a struggle at times and I can say that today it is just what needs to be done.

Now my family has come to a place where we know that God is telling us that it is time to give to the less fortunate on a regular basis. This is another area where we give “when we can” and “what we can at the time”. Honestly, that was exactly ok for the time. It was recently that Jesus has been prompting us to do more. He has been showing us that it’s time to give again and that it needs to cost us. For us, I knew that it meant the ministry in Africa that our church is doing.  We just never “got around” to setting that regular payment up….funny how that happens! 🙂

This past Sunday, my Pastor and his wife shared about their trip out to Africa and the Holy Spirit convicted us in such a way that I could no longer ignore. (hear their testimony here) How selfish and greedy with have been! There are Pastors in Africa that risk their lives to share the gospel and I have the option to be part of that each month. My family can give such a small portion of our income to support an entire family for that month. Why is it so hard to do?!

Well, today we went into our budget and made it happen. Every month we will be giving what is needed to support one Pastor and his family. We are walking where Jesus has told us to. It’s not easy. It’s hard to part with that money. My flesh cries out and swears that we cannot afford it! Jesus tells me otherwise. Today I am choosing to allow it to cost me. Today I am choosing Jesus and not allowing my selfishness to get in the way of blessing others. All we have is His and is to be used to bring Him glory and that is why I am sharing this with you today.

I want you to hear my story and to know that you are not alone in your struggle. I want you to know that when I first put the 10% tithe into our budget, I couldn’t see how we would be able to afford groceries. I want you to know that today, we still live in abundance and groceries are just fine. Our bills are paid and we are far from struggling. We are blessed Americans and are finally starting to see that. We may not be rich by our culture’s standards, but we are rich by Jesus’ standards and as compared to the true poor in this world.

Let Jesus make a change in you when if comes to your finances. It is scary, it seems uncertain and you will struggle hard. That’s ok, you’re not alone and Jesus is right there with you when you take that leap.

Thanks for listening, I love you all.